everything's growing

including, a bit of anger and some resentment. A little humiliation thrown in for good measure.
Dammit!
Out, damn spot.
I'm vigilant now. I'm not asleep at the wheel. No comfort zone bliss here. Almost... but, a quick reality check and I'm back.
Just needed to clean off the lenses. I see.
Problem is, I'm not "cool" anymore. I'm red fucking hot.

Here's a thought...

Princeton has a road widening project going on, much to my and the neighbors' disappointment. Yet another example of our government working AGAINST the people. This is a "stimulus" project. They call it "stimulus" hoping it will confuse you into thinking that they are giving us all something. I see my tax rate as the only thing being stimulated around here, and my agitation.
This project will speed up the traffic, making it a less safe place for our children to ride their bicycles, for us to walk our dogs, and for the horses that travel up and down this road on any given day. There are 6 residences on this section of road and as far as I know, not one of them are for this project. Everyone likes the bumpy country road. It slows people down.
Too bad, so sad, it's happening. Last fall, they starting taking down trees. A crew of trucks with Florida plates spent nearly two weeks cutting down old and young trees up and down the road. So, I realise that stimulus money sent for MA is now employing a company and men based out of Florida. Hmmm.... seems kind of unfair. Isn't the money meant to create jobs in MA?
Now, a whole new crew has arrived to widen the road. Where are they from? Not here.
Here's an idea that I would have thought would be obvious, but I see now that NOTHING is obvious. For these projects, why not give a call to all the residents IN Princeton who are unemployed. Offer them the jobs. Temporary jobs, but money in the pocket and food on the table. Stimulus for Princeton residents... makes sense, doesn't it?
They have our numbers! They have our addresses! How can a government expect it's people to rise to greatness when they encourage such laziness? Here's a job, if you don't take it, you stop getting unemployment compensation. Done. Cut the fucking red tape, make some sense and be proactive!

no polaroids

Ever notice, when looking through family albums, you don't see a bunch of photos labeled "worst day ever". We don't generally take pictures at funerals (you scrapbook crazed lunatics at the casket are fucking insane, by the way), the day someone passes, the day we lose a job, the day we lose our house, our minds.
I, in fact, did not take pictures during my separation and divorce, of anything. There were some happy moments in there, for sure, but I was not in the mode of "recording our life story". Sorry, kids, I hope you have good memories!
There is a reason why we don't (usually) take pictures of our sad moments... we count on our memory bank to destroy them for us over time. And, thank goddess, too, because it sure makes forgiveness easier.

all fired up

... and the sun isn't even up yet!
Busy brain is in high gear. I love these hyper productive bouts.

backwards thinking

Why is it that there are towns in this state that are willing to close up a library and cut the staff of the police and fire, yet they will approve monies to build a playground, when there are already two in the town?!!!!!!!
COME ON PEOPLE! Another playground? Another spot for bored local teens to do drugs and have sex after dark? Oh, yes, of course there are the few children who bounce around the equipment during the day, until someone finds a used condom or needle and everyone stays away. Most people have some kind of giant plastic toy in their own yard or keep the kids parked in front of the tv (where they are "safe" haha).
Libraries enrich a community like nothing else can. The gift of books and programs that are accessible to the entire community, from babies to the elderly. Playgroups, book clubs, books on tape, museum discounts, helpful information, community support, large print books, magazines and newspapers, history, art, life!
SAVE OUR LIBRARIES!!!!!!
(it's not even my town and I'm pissed as hell! Orange cannot afford this loss!)

Osteospermum

Spoon Daisy
Isn't she a beauty?

*warning: graphic miseducation*

I met an old lady yesterday who told me she "can't have spices". We were standing over the thyme admiring it, offered her some for her cooking, and she said "Oh, no, I can't have any spices. No salt, no pepper, nothing! It's because of my medicines."
Is this true? Could it be possible to eat food with no seasoning at all?!
Shock!
Horror!
Who has told this woman such a thing? And, the awful thing is that you can never convince an old lady that what she thinks is right could be wrong.